Flashback

A lot of things can happen in a year. I mentioned in my first post that the past few have been quite eventful for me. This past year however has held probably the two biggest changes in my life.

First of all was my marriage. It's funny how much time we take from our lives to prepare and plan for something that only lasts a day. Not the commitment of course, but the days events. After a year of planning and preparing February the 11th came and went all to soon.

I still sometimes look at the date and can't believe that it has already been 3 months. Time flys when you get caught up in life. The routine that work provides is probably one of the things that makes time slip away the fastest.

Ah work. We arrive at the reason for this entry. While reminiscing on the wedding is a activity I could spend many hours doing, that isn't why I decided to write today. I'm writing today to mark a milestone in my life today.

Today is the 1 year mark at my first job. When I say "first" I probably more likely then not mean only as well. As a blind person with a limited amount of vision the job opportunities didn't just fall in my lap. At one point in my life I had unwillingly even made myself accept the fact that I might become just another housewife, carrying out the days monotonous days chores around the house.

Don't get me wrong, if you are the stay at home mom type, I have no issues with that. To be honest it's probably more work then my job is, but the fact of the matter is that it's something you have decided to do. I wasn't really happy with letting my lack of eye sight stop me from being a functioning member of society and from contributing equally financially to my relationship.

So I'm here, a year later at my job. It hasn't been easy, and some days it's still hard. The lack of stimulation intellectually is sometimes hard for me to handle, but I have to keep reminding myself that the pros outweigh the cons. I'm working, taking on a hefty chunk of the bill load with the money I'm earning, and am a functioning part of society now. Not to say I wasn't before, but I always wanted to be a member of the working world.

Saying it's been easy would be a lie. Saying it's been awful would not be quite right either though. Sometimes it feels like I'm running in circles, always meeting the same brick wall. Then there are the days like today where I can say I've done it, I'm still here, and I'm going to keep waiting for things to work themselves out. Walking uphill all the time can sometimes be very draining, but when you get to a flat spot with a nice view, things become a little clearer.